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We did a lot of things today and I was so weak. Felt sick since the very morning, then overstimulation just kept pilling up and sadness and all of it and even with my noise-cancelling headphones I had litterally the impression of hearing screams from hell and just there was too much. Im so disappointed in myself. Everyone must surely absolutely hate me. They must. I'm sure ofit. I hate myself SO MUCH im so tired of my STPID WEAKNESS